For the longest time, I was feeling great. Happy, positive, on top of the world. Now, I am feeling so sad, so hopeless.
Whenever I talked to people about my crush, they told me to ask her out, go for it. I can’t really ask her out if she ignores me. It hurts to find out that she doesn’t like me back.
What makes it even worse is the fact that I am best friends with her brother. So, any time that I hear from him, or hang out with him, I will be reminded of her, and the fact that she doesn’t want anything to do with me. I know I will get over her, most likely. But for now, I can’t get her out of my mind, hoping that maybe eventually she will send me some message, or something.
I want her. I don’t want to spend the rest of my life alone. I am thirty years old, and at this rate, I will be forty before I know it, and I will still be alone, living paycheck to paycheck.